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Chaos Is A Friend Of Mine

  Poetry   My heart is breaking Over what, I'm unsure My heart is ever-aching Life is like a chore  I have pain in my eyes  And music in my soul It may come as a surprise I’m getting very old Chaos is a friend of mine That is my best bet Holy towers of ketamine Drown me til I’m wet Pain is all too commonplace, they’ve all said it before I went to some kind of place, of that I can’t ignore While my eyes well up like gusting wind and my soul twists and shouts, I’m not one to say the truth that no one hears about Life is all too short, I’m aging everyday And yet I can’t wait for the very end of today Why are love and grieving  Complete opposites y’know, Better be giving than receiving Life’s a stage, a show So I’ll say my goodbyes now, farewell my faraway friend Take comfort knowing that  This isn’t the end.

Bargain Beauty: Who Knew The Dollar Tree Had Such Good Makeup?!?!

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It's a given that everything here was $1 each.  L.A. Colors Eyeshadow Palette I am beyond happy with this!! I love that it gives you a bunch of different shades of pink to play with. (Hence the name Playful perhaps!) haha. As you can see, I've tried out the bottom 3 shades, I LOVE THEM. They are very pigmented. I don't know how they do it for the price. The packaging isn't anything special and it gets stuck if you close the plastic top all the way, so I guess that's where they're saving their money lol. I notice the most popular beauty brands (Benefit, Too Faced) that are super pretty and make you wanna get them have the prettiest packaging. So looking at just the bones of the product, these shadows are really nice. I wanted some good pinks for spring. Pink is also a good color to bring out the green in hazel eyes :) and looks pretty on brown eyes too! My eyes are hazel-brown. When I wear black mascara and liner, my eyes look brown so I wanted to flatter them wi...

New e.l.f. Products! Review

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Tone Correcting Powder - $3 This powder is meant to correct coloring issues with your skin. The green cancels out redness, pink brightens, yellow cancels out purple if you have a bruise or something, blue is meant for canceling out any orangeyness. You're supposed to swirl your brush all around each color and glide it over your foundation as a last step. It's very mattifying and is a good finishing powder. I love the colors as I'm crazy about pastels :) I'm not sure it does what it's meant to since your foundation is already covering the imperfections in coloring issues, but I got the "I really want a color correcting palette!!!" out of my system for only a few bucks. Physicians Formula makes a similar product for $12.75. I'm glad this was so cheap! e.l.f. Complexion Brush - $3 I was looking for a big, fluffy powder brush for a long time. My old one has a scratchy feeling when I put it on my face, it actually kinda hurts my skin because the brush isn...

What Happened When I Went 2+ Weeks Without Makeup

It's been driving me crazy lately how random people online feel free to tell me that I wear too much makeup. STOP there. Why don't I tell them that they have too many tattoos? Or too much facial hair? "Your beard is outta control, seriously just cut it."  I don't tell anyone how they should look or if I have a problem with how they look, it's just that-- MY problem and not something I need to tell them to change to make me happy. Yet, guys (so far, never girls) have told me I should wear less makeup, or not wear makeup at all. Men of the world: if you like women, hey even just have any respect for self-expression at all, let your personal opinion on makeup not be made known. I didn't ask you? You don't tell me. Simple. However, a couple of years ago at work, I basically stopped caring what I looked like. I had been at the job for almost three years and had given up. I reached burnout and wanted to quit. They had been scheduling me on the morning shift ...

On The Sunny Side Of The Street

Writing is very important. You release your thoughts in your writing, and your thoughts are very vulnerable things to reveal...they're uniquely you, and although other people may share things that pop into your brain as well, nobody else knows what you are thinking but you. Thoughts are things; you can't see them but they're just as powerful as anything tangible. What you repeatedly think, you come to believe, your beliefs become your values, and these are essential to you. Remember, when you're going through your busy, or not-so busy day, how important it is to think before you speak. As Craig Ferguson said, "Does this need to be said?" Words can cut figuratively speaking and hurt just as badly as a cut from a knife. "Sticks and stones can break bones, but words can break hearts." (Tim Minchin) So just as you're careful (hopefully) with what you say, you also need to be mindful of what you think. I've heard that it's something like 50,00...

Love & only love

When my heart is feeling cold, When my soul is growing old, Tell me you're the one I've told: "I love you without reason" There is no need for me to have There is only love and love is mad. You can win your dreams or lose it bad; I dream, I won you When my heart tips upside down, When my smile has left to frown, I'm nothing if you're not around — Love will not be lost And when my days feel all anew, When my thoughts are coming through, Don't let me forget the best view: Love and only love. Poem by me 1yr ago today. :)
Tonight, I lean on my window pane I feel tears streak down my cheeks Try as I might, night after night, insane Love evades me so I just weep I feel my soul kick inside me, as if to tell me I am real Losing it all so no one will find you; morning is breaking like steel And in the quietest depths of that Which brings your essence peace Not for the darkest, biggest trap That sorrow falls to never cease But in one's heart, a soldier: a spirit true and just and plain Toils away his bitterest hours, Sour, and beguiling, in vain The barren road upon which the soldier treads Stretches out in all its wonder, Masking light and throwing it asunder, With fear and awful dread.